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I WANTED TO QUIT BLOGGING IN BLOGSPOT BUT i miss this blog so much! i tried blogging in tumblr, the feeling and satisfaction is not the same! sooo. i m still surviving from my AUSMAT course and i have 2 weeks to study till my WACE aka finals! fighting :)

4#thoughts : for myself

it has been 6 months of college.i am almost a year faster than those who go for july intake.HAAHAA.

but thinking back..i wasnt ready at all for college at that time.it was so crazy, everything was going so fast.presentations,assignments keep coming in one after another. the lecturers were splashing water on our face with those facts that i had never heard in my life.

i do not know what was i really doing at that time,i was following the flow of the curriculum.i've lost my direction, what was my aim, what do i really want? 

well, i admit that i did not do well in my studies for the past 6 months, i know i can do better than that. 

i experienced a little culture shock..there's difference between ipoh and kl..every routine that i used to follow have to change.i know i am not staying in the shell anymore, in fact I M THE SHELL. i have to be independent.. surviving in a place without my parent.

but i know all this will not stop me from chasing my dreams, reaching the goals that i wanted. showing myself,my mum that i can be able to change for the better.sometimes i do doubt myself, whether i can be able to do it..but i cant afford to give up or to change my mind.soo no matter what i have to keep on going and pushing myself to do it.

i guessed this is life, everyone have to go through this and i am not the exception ones.

i started this and i shall end this properly.

3#thoughts

the art of human.
"Why God created bad guys and good guys, why not only good guys? so that the good guys will not suffered from the bad guys?"
i think this is just the same as the question why God created heaven and hell?

some events that happened made me doubt the people around me, including friends, even the close ones.. thinking are they real? really treating you as real friends i suppose?

but what i have learned is that when u treat people well, dont expect they will treat you the same as you do, just..do not expect anything from them.because when they did not do what you have expected in return, u yourself will be heartbroken. the same as goes when u pray to the Lord, do not always expect a return, not testing the Lord whether his super power is working.

this doesnt mean we should stop blessing people, but to bless them MORE.continue to Love the Lord, as when you do not expect anything from him, he makes Miracles in your life.

Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely,is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things,believe all things,hope all things,endure all things.
Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies,they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge,it will vanish away. 1 Corinthians 4-10


you have fail in condemning a child of God that contains the wisdom from the Lord. 

2#thoughts

i felt a little homesick.i miss you girls.suddenly thought of those stupid moments we had together.the times where we eat in the class,when we get punish to stand outside the classroom,fooling around in the class... i will never forget the times when we laugh till our lungs out. i cant do those hardcore laughs anymore.

i still havent change my bad habits, i still love to snatch my friends' food..ohyeah THE FOOD STEALER. actually there's no such word in english.lousy siao li!


i m sorry that i didnt keep in contact with some of you.but i still miss all of you alright.i treasure the moments we had together.thanks for being my friends. i hope our friendship will last forever.i really really miss you girls. i hope you girls are all doing good, may God bless all of u. <3

my grey theory

i have a theory of my own called the GREY THEORY.

WHY GREY?

because grey is my favorite color. maybe to much of grey stuff around me?..thats how i came out with this theory.

soooo WHAT IS THE THEORY?
grey is the colour that shines. tak faham? i know what u r thinking now..wondering' wth.grey doesnt shine! u colour blind!'

FOR ME. grey is the colour that shines.it is the colour that shines from the inside or sometimes i say it as it shines behind it.

people love to say they have a grey day AKA moody or a bad day. grey day happens when there's a bad event happen that makes you go emo.moody.sad.unhappy.tadaaaaaa.*all the negative feelings*
but MY THEORY states that whenever there's events that you down,always believe that there's gonna be great things after it. the *positive energy* is the shine! the bright light!

that's how i cheer myself up when things in my life get messed up.when i feel lost and feel really really bad. the #greytheory brought me forward. i shared this theory to all my friends, some of them thinks it sounds silly and thinks i m crapping some crazy theory. you never know when those uneventful stuff gonna happen and at that moment maybe..maybe u will thought of this theory and keep you motivated? hmmmmm :D

BUT.. dont forget to pray and seek the Lord when things doesnt go right. i mean u should have pray everyday right?just..just dont neglect the Lord. it only works when you do the both( the theory and the prayers).

this is my comfort in my affliction,for Your word has given me life.. Psalm 119:50

#thoughts

恨不得快点长大
hen bu de kuai dian zhang da
Can't wait to grow up faster
天下父母都这般期盼着我们啊
tian xia fu mu dou zhe ban qi pan zhe wo men a
The parents in the world are hoping and expecting us the same way
我们已健康成长
wo men yi jian kang cheng zhang
We have grown up healthily
快来祈祷父母长命百岁啊
kuai lai qi dao fu mu chang ming bai sui a
Faster praying for the parents hope they could live long

* 请记得要常回家看看爸爸和妈妈
qing ji de yao chang hui jia kan kan ba ba he ma ma
Please remember to go home always to visit father and mother
简单的一顿饭他们也开心很久啊
jian dan de yi dun fan ta men ye kai xin hen jiu a
A simple meal could make them happy for very long too
随便聊一些话或随意呆在家
sui bian liao yi xie hua huo sui yi dai zai jia
Casual chitchat or idle at home
父母的伟大是从不要求我们报答
fu mu de wei da shi cong bu yao qiu wo men bao da
The greatness of parents is they never ask us to repay

生活的压力真大
sheng huo de ya li zhen da
The stress of life is so big
爸爸妈妈多苦也撑起了一个家
ba ba ma ma duo ku ye cheng qi le yi ge jia
No matter how hard it is father and mother would still support a family
我的一点点挫败
wo de yi dian dian cuo bai
The little defeat that i had
说历经沧桑仍微不足道啊
shuo li jin cang sang reng wei bu zu dao a
Saying that i had experienced the hard ship of life is insignificant (when comparing to the parents)

# 请给我多一点时间证明给你们看
qing gei wo duo yi dian shi jian zheng ming gei ni men kan
Please give me a little more time to prove and show to you
请原谅我的能力有限再要努力啊
qing yuan liang wo de neng li you xian zai yao nu li a
Please forgive me on the limitation of my ability, i need to try hard still
偶尔我没回家或工作到天亮
ou er wo mei hui jia huo gong zuo dao tian liang
Once a while i do not come home or work until daybreak
偶尔你慰问的电话让我充满力量
ou er ni wei wen de dian hua rang wo chong man li liang
The consolation call that you make once in a while fills me with the power

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父母的伟大穷我一生也难以报答
fu mu de wei da qiong wo yi sheng ye nan yi bao da
It's hardly to repay the greatness of parents even i used up my whole life
我们要把握时光来疼爱爸爸妈妈
wo men yao ba wo shi guang lai teng ai ba ba ma ma
We have to seize the time to love father and mother dearly

i used to sing this song in school during mother's or father's day. And now, that i m away from home, from my parents.. this song means my feeling now. i miss my mum.. and dad.

april? time flies!

my blog seems so dead.i have the urge to delete the blog before this.

anyways..HEHE

time flies.4 months in college...from a freshie,innocent little girl to a _______ STILL A NEWBIE LA. but college change me. i tend to speak more now, notthelowconfidencepoorlittlegirl in the past.

i've been slacking lately. my studies,I didnt do well in those little test and assignments that is counted in the ATAR score. MEANS IS REALLY IMPORTANT

Mock test is coming soon.i guess what i really need now is DISCIPLINE. my mum have high hopes on me. i do not want to disappoint her. just a reminder for myself, i m not doing this to anyone, but FOR MYSELF AND FOR GOD.

by faith, i believe God will make the impossible possible. He makes miracles right?