the black and white puppet

jiggle bells jiggle bells jiggle all the way~ IS CHRISTMAS!

i did a dance for christmas with japhia(who choreograph it)with rachel.joses.pris.hilda and dhana.

we had just a few practice and we did it!

our character in the dance is a puppet.we pose and we move like a puppet.haha.

and thanks jayhia for teaching us such a creative dance with love and patience.LOL

i love Christmas.is a remembrance of the birth Jesus.is a great thing that we celebrate it.

the dance:)

overcomers!

WE ARE THE OVERCOMERS!

On the10th and 11th of December,we have a conference-'OVERCOMERS' from Mike Pilavachi.

He was a fantastic speaker.He emphasize a lot on LOVE...that we christians need to show more love to the world out there and be a good example as a christian.This is the way to reach out to them,using LOVE to melt their heart and believe God as their saviour.

Mike Pilavachi really has his own way of preaching.The way he express his word indirectly but at the same time u understand what he is trying to say.The wonderful thing till now i can still remember his preaching.LOL

i felt the presence of God at the 2nd night of conference.before that night,i was worried that i cant get back to the Lord anymore...i dun feel any connection with HIM and i m nt focus either.

That night,i released all my burden onto him and i heard...

Vivien,u can always come back.You belong right here,right beside me.

Rac came to me and she said clear out all the brokenness deep down yr heart...by tonight go out as a new you...something like that.I was touched..really really touched.THANK YOU,RACHEL I LOVE YOU!

i belong to you,Lord.

the funny speaker-Mike Pilavachi

worship session.(me..infront of the white shirt guy)

aw..he is so cute.(mike's team)

the winner of the fearfactor challenge.is an ipad!!

achivement doesnt mean successful

HOLIDAY.this holiday was special. I..

LEARN SOMETHING.LOST SOMEONE.GAIN MORE

First of all,my mum went china,wenzhou for some working+vacation for 9 days.but later her business was kinda great..she delayed her flight back to msia 3 days later,which means she went china for 12 days.

i thought when my mum was gone..it was a total FREEDOM for me and my roomie man yee.

we could go out 4 movies and lepaking whenever we like it :)

i was wrong.it didnt really happen like what i was imagine.

this is me and man yee.this was the last night...spending together :(

her mum call up to pick her up back to Kelantan after 3 days my mum went china.ahhh...

isnt much time left.i wanted to create more memories before she is gone to kl..

soo we went jusco for movies and lost world-this hap

piest day with her

anndd..after lost world..i watched her packing up herstuff and she is gone.no coming back ipoh anymore. It was total heartbroken.my mum went china,she left me,i became a loner.

staying together for 6 months..i cant accept in a sudden that she is gone.

that night i was depressed,i miss my mum and i miss my roomie.

i miss my mum was not because i miss my mum.(what a ridiculous sentence) i was worried about her.she did not cal bac for 3days.from the day she reach china.her phone cant get through and i gt none of her friend's phone num.ughhh...she called back FINALLY.3 days later.

so i was alone..still not used to man yee left me.but time goes by, im better now.got back the old me.INDEPENDENT AND the girl who happy-ing around.

the happy-ing around thing.HA-HA

ohhh yah..i forgot to talk about my aunty.she came from penang to take care of my grandma and cook 4 us.but her COOKING SUCKS.totally sucks!!!!!!!!!

me.a girl who hates kitchen can cook 10 times better than her.i m serious.

the creative recipe she cooked for each day:

day1: soup which contains sausages,meatballs,fishballs,Taiwanese sausages...

day2:bitter gourd soup with grilled pork in it.it turned out to be super oily.

day3: the ajinamoto from instant noodle..she took it ou

t and did a fried vege. IT WAS SUPER SALTY.

day 4:she burned my bowl !!!

the following days: i tried to get rid of her food.i went out for lunch and dinner whenever i get chances LOL.

TODAY:I had porridge for dinner.It wasnt porridge actually.it was rice with some water that have meatballs in it.wonderful right?!

p.s.: everything she finished her cooking the kitchen turn out to be very dirty.

i cant stand it anymore.i clean the whole kitchen after she done her cooking.i dont clean kitchen when my mum was around.i mean i dun clean the house.heeee

but believe me.i've changed.i clean the house now.okay.every single stuff girls suppose to do.this is what i GAIN i guess.haha.

My mum is coming back later.no special feelings about it.i m use to being alone now.kinda enjoy it.

annnnyyyway...there is a prayer for my mum.

Lord,i uphold my mum to u Lord.she is coming back malaysia now.May u always be with her and take care of her and send yr angels to surround her.pray that everything will go smooth and she will come bac safely.thank you,Lord.

I LOVE YOU.

amen.

orang asli visitation November21,2010

CE youth ant the young adults went to a orang asli village in Chenderiang.

The people there had low income and they still produce a lot kids.HA-HA

The place was unhygienic,the water there wasnt clean and it had irregular electrical supply.thepeople there mostly have skin disease and other sickness.

And...here we are!! we did a free medical check up sessions with them and got some supplements for them.

It was a new experience for me..helping people in needs.

APPRECIATE WHAT WE HAVE PEOPLE!!

thank God for what you provide me every single day.

PICTURES TIME!!!

the team!!

the kids..

me!!!

medical check ups

packing gifts for them :)

exploring around..i look so nerddd

the finalle.lunch time!

thanks japhia and jeremy for the pictures!

[MV HD] B2ST - Beautiful [english subs+romanization+hangul]

i dont like beast but the song is nice and addictive.

love it soo much.

Jaeson Ma - Glory ft. Caleb Lin

wanna share this video to all the christians and also all the ppl in the world.

i find it strong and powerful and wanna make me walk closer with him.

blink blink** ..ouch!

heyy..blog.

my blog is pretty dead.i had made some little changes to make it not too boring.

just finish my finals..the results came out was-"the answer that u reply when mummie asked about yr results" OKAY LA. I WILL DO BETTER NEXT TIME.

school after exams is boring. today i slept in the class for about 4 periods.a good and lovely nap.i love the weather for this few weeks.it was cold,cloudy and humid.and it was GREYY! I love greyy..my friends think i m crazy that i love weird colors and weird stuff.anyway,this kinda weather lemme to hav good mood and i dont get mad easily.

4 girls from thailand came and visit our school today.they came to our class and it was like awkward** ..we dont know what to say or what to

talk about.is kinda hard having conversation with them.they do

nt study malay duhh.. or chinese i thought they do and they are poor in english. but i think they enjoyed themselves experiencing high school life in malaysia...talking different languages

and dialeks,tasting different kind of foood, knowing more about the culture here and yea.. even different uniforms.

they wear white blouse , dark blue skirt (which is almost 4inches after the knee ) and with a black belt which is actually hidden and black shoes with white socks.u get what i mean right?! teeehee.

to all the anak malaysia: be grateful that our country still hav sense of fashion.we wear BETTER SCHOOL UNIFORMS. dont ever complain about how boring and ugly our uniforms are.*i used to complain about our school uniforms* woah..i feel so patriotic now.

dear english

wow..it has been long that i did not post up any blog.i have been lazy..about blogging.anyway..i m here!!!
i m still having exams..my finals!!
tmr's subject is english.woohhooo.my favourites.hee
but i dont feel good.this time.i felt heavy pressure.studying in a chinese school,my english is consider good.i had been praise by my schoolmates and desk mate..but seriously in reality,uhhuh..u guys know me.hahaha

i was having brilliant result for my english in my previous.i was proud of myself of course.i m afraid this time.i m afraid that i cant do so well like the previous exam..
i know i shoudnt thought of all this.i should be positive.
my mum was encouraging me just now and she called me to do my best.but the more i of it,i felt worse.ahhh...

a prayer for myself:
Father Lord,i uphold myself into yr hands.i m having english exam tmr.let to have faith and wisdom when i m doing my papers.let the flow of tenses and my grammar will be smooth..take away all the fears and worries that i m having right now.i know WITH GOD ALL THE ARE POSSIBLE :) pls do help me Lord.i love you.amen

writing the post lemme feels better.so..i can do it right?! YEA!! *I KNOW IS LAME*
good luck on my papers tmr.

for the Lord will always be in my heart...

i doesnt seems to like it.but i have to accept it.

my holidays seems to be- putting inotherwords settle you to a place for a long time.just like a little girl sent to a childcare centre for a whole day and fetch you when is time.

a teenage girl doesnt like it that way.but she have no choice but to understand and follow.

the things that i done the most during this feel days are swimming and going to the gym.the only place to hang out with my friends and have some fun.

this morning i went swimming again with my bestie-siaoli.had a great fun there.
i saw my childhood friends there.OMG,is just darn awkward and embarrassing.
turning back to the days..we used to spent most of the time fooling around in the pool and 3 of us loves to swim.it had been a long time that we did not contact each other and today,we met again coincidentally in the pool. i was staring at the pool and thinking the days we have fun it the pool.

i missed you guys.yes.both of you. :)

and

I LOVE SWIMMING.

tasteofsourandbitter

i doesnt really feel good right now.i dont understand.i couldnt stop thinking about my friends my family and my own problems. i've even asked myself why all this stuff happen to me? why me again?

well..i do really have question myself about what i did to my friends and my behavior..sometimes is just wasnt me.THEREALME. turning to friends..i m selfish.seriously.i admit it.

i m sick the past few days or maybe weeks.things was in a mess.i cant follow the beat..the classwork.homework.tuition's work.everything was undone and unknown.

i m better now.after writing this post.but there are still a uncomfortable feeling twisting in my heart.
Lord,i pray for comfort and peace of mind.may u continue to guide me to face all the hardships.mo matter how hard izit i know Lord u will be right beside me.i need you and i love you Lord.amen.

the sweetness of music

lots of feelings flow into my heart yesterday during my piano class.

I HATE THURSDAY..seriously
thursday is a day that i have the most tuition.that means more homeworks.another word which is no resting.sometimes i seems to sick of my routine and i just wanna get rid of it.

things go smooth this thursday.manage to do my stuff accordingly,at least i dont go crazy or retarded..*laughs*

yesterday's piano class was okay..until i was overwhelmed by listening music and chords by other students.there was a grown up woman learning beginner's classical music..i just sat at the side as usual to wait for my transport.everything goes normal until my teacher taught her to play chords which are hillsongs..the songs just melts my heart.the melodies..the music just run into my mind..thought of many things at that moment..God spoke to me at that time and let me sees the determination of the woman as she is just a beginner struggles but enjoyed to play and to serve him.
no matter how hard things goes..there is always a way to change it.
'every problems that we are facing,there is always a purpose from the Lord'
this is how i came out from the dark that everyone hates.

i really really wish that i can play like the woman by playing whole heartedly facing to the Lord.

there was a adorable little girl waiting for her turn to start her lesson.i realized that she a serious short sightedness..she struggled when she sight read the notes but she doesnt give up and continue doing the same actions until gets it.i was really touched by watching that..on the other way ppl like me have no problem with my sight or hearing did not put as much effort like the little girl.

change.thats what i should be doing now.

can i shout...??

arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
much better.

let me introduce my lovers

#1 well known korean band. SHINEE

There are 5 members in this group,which is Onew-the leader.jonghyun-lead singer.taemin-lead dancer.key-rapper.minho-rapper.

this is minho.my favourite.he has a very different personality among the members.he is 19 this year,just enroll in a university about producing movies.if he is not a artist,he may be a good athlete.he shines in sportss.

#2 Vanness wu

a guy that is american-born-chinese.grown up in US make his character kind of western..

was formerly one of F4 members,but currently comes out with his own albums and having his entertainment industry in majorly Japan and Hong Kong.

most importantly he is a christian,not only just believes in him but willing to change his old bad character and evangelize to the world about God.

my holidays started like this...

went to Cameron on the first day of the holidays with my mum's cell group members but i went without my mum.haha.is suppose to be her retreat not be.but i end up going there.

hmmm..everything was niceee..most importantly i love the weather.suites my body temperature.heee

uncle onn tian preach for the whole retreat.his preaching was good and powerful.he has shadows from elijah..haha.seriously.the way he stands,talks..the God's presence was very strong.i received words from him.was very near with him..the burden..the worries was off and let go.pheww..praise the Lord.

on the 2nd day prayer meeting was powerful..God really touched my heart.before that i really dunno why i m there since my mum is not following..but at that moment i got the answer that is to seek God.i got a chance that be closer with him.

i hang out with melody almost all the time.we talk about k pop,guys [ahem..koreans],the place[korea]..any stuff that connected about korea.and both of us are crazy about it.

the fellowship from the aunties was 'funny'..haha.cant say much after get counselling.just joking.lolz.anyway..i really can see love between them.

no regrets going to this retreat.

Pictures time!

hello dear blog .i mback.
my days...wanna keep it happy.but in reality world u cant really do that perfectly.
there are times of stress.misunderstandings.arguments,blablabla

i had arguments with my friends today.i was really depressed afterthat.on that moment,i told myself: vivien,u promised that u must love.loveeeeeeeee.
okay.i did it.but i think is wasnt goood enough.i really dont want all this to continue.i got no idea to stop all this.
dear lord jesus,may u pls tell me how i gonna face it.how i gonna got through all this.give me strenght.give wisdom to go through.most importantly teach me to love.i trust you and i believe in you.amen

busy.but love it

school days are always busy and is not going to end till form5 .

schools.then tuitions and tuitions.then church.youth service.

is really tiring.stressful.



i changed my thinking these days, not to hate it but lovee it.not to runn aaway from it, but face it.

i saw this scene while i was walking on the flyovers.that is to appreciate the school days...



before biology tuition,me and few of my besties went to mcd for lunch.we walked to the tuition centre then. we really have fun, not to say fun..but the kind of joy in my heart.we were walking through flyovers,passing traffic lights and crossing the busy roads..and we were like fooling around and talking about korean guys and stuff like that.haha.

time will not flies back, but going on day by day..in few years time..we wont be wearing our school uniforms and fooling around along the road.we dun have tuitions anymore.cant spend so much time with our besties either.



just love the days we had.appreciate it.be happy.like me.lol