i doesnt really feel good right now.i dont understand.i couldnt stop thinking about my friends my family and my own problems. i've even asked myself why all this stuff happen to me? why me again?
well..i do really have question myself about what i did to my friends and my behavior..sometimes is just wasnt me.THEREALME. turning to friends..i m selfish.seriously.i admit it.
i m sick the past few days or maybe weeks.things was in a mess.i cant follow the beat..the classwork.homework.tuition's work.everything was undone and unknown.
i m better now.after writing this post.but there are still a uncomfortable feeling twisting in my heart.
Lord,i pray for comfort and peace of mind.may u continue to guide me to face all the hardships.mo matter how hard izit i know Lord u will be right beside me.i need you and i love you Lord.amen.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Friday, July 23, 2010
the sweetness of music
lots of feelings flow into my heart yesterday during my piano class.
I HATE THURSDAY..seriously
thursday is a day that i have the most tuition.that means more homeworks.another word which is no resting.sometimes i seems to sick of my routine and i just wanna get rid of it.
things go smooth this thursday.manage to do my stuff accordingly,at least i dont go crazy or retarded..*laughs*
yesterday's piano class was okay..until i was overwhelmed by listening music and chords by other students.there was a grown up woman learning beginner's classical music..i just sat at the side as usual to wait for my transport.everything goes normal until my teacher taught her to play chords which are hillsongs..the songs just melts my heart.the melodies..the music just run into my mind..thought of many things at that moment..God spoke to me at that time and let me sees the determination of the woman as she is just a beginner struggles but enjoyed to play and to serve him.
no matter how hard things goes..there is always a way to change it.
'every problems that we are facing,there is always a purpose from the Lord'
this is how i came out from the dark that everyone hates.
i really really wish that i can play like the woman by playing whole heartedly facing to the Lord.
I HATE THURSDAY..seriously
thursday is a day that i have the most tuition.that means more homeworks.another word which is no resting.sometimes i seems to sick of my routine and i just wanna get rid of it.
things go smooth this thursday.manage to do my stuff accordingly,at least i dont go crazy or retarded..*laughs*
yesterday's piano class was okay..until i was overwhelmed by listening music and chords by other students.there was a grown up woman learning beginner's classical music..i just sat at the side as usual to wait for my transport.everything goes normal until my teacher taught her to play chords which are hillsongs..the songs just melts my heart.the melodies..the music just run into my mind..thought of many things at that moment..God spoke to me at that time and let me sees the determination of the woman as she is just a beginner struggles but enjoyed to play and to serve him.
no matter how hard things goes..there is always a way to change it.
'every problems that we are facing,there is always a purpose from the Lord'
this is how i came out from the dark that everyone hates.
i really really wish that i can play like the woman by playing whole heartedly facing to the Lord.
there was a adorable little girl waiting for her turn to start her lesson.i realized that she a serious short sightedness..she struggled when she sight read the notes but she doesnt give up and continue doing the same actions until gets it.i was really touched by watching that..on the other way ppl like me have no problem with my sight or hearing did not put as much effort like the little girl.
change.thats what i should be doing now.
Friday, June 25, 2010
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
let me introduce my lovers
#1 well known korean band. SHINEE
There are 5 members in this group,which is Onew-the leader.jonghyun-lead singer.taemin-lead dancer.key-rapper.minho-rapper.
this is minho.my favourite.he has a very different personality among the members.he is 19 this year,just enroll in a university about producing movies.if he is not a artist,he may be a good athlete.he shines in sportss.
#2 Vanness wu
a guy that is american-born-chinese.grown up in US make his character kind of western..
was formerly one of F4 members,but currently comes out with his own albums and having his entertainment industry in majorly Japan and Hong Kong.
most importantly he is a christian,not only just believes in him but willing to change his old bad character and evangelize to the world about God.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
my holidays started like this...
went to Cameron on the first day of the holidays with my mum's cell group members but i went without my mum.haha.is suppose to be her retreat not be.but i end up going there.
hmmm..everything was niceee..most importantly i love the weather.suites my body temperature.heee
uncle onn tian preach for the whole retreat.his preaching was good and powerful.he has shadows from elijah..haha.seriously.the way he stands,talks..the God's presence was very strong.i received words from him.was very near with him..the burden..the worries was off and let go.pheww..praise the Lord.
on the 2nd day prayer meeting was powerful..God really touched my heart.before that i really dunno why i m there since my mum is not following..but at that moment i got the answer that is to seek God.i got a chance that be closer with him.
i hang out with melody almost all the time.we talk about k pop,guys [ahem..koreans],the place[korea]..any stuff that connected about korea.and both of us are crazy about it.
the fellowship from the aunties was 'funny'..haha.cant say much after get counselling.just joking.lolz.anyway..i really can see love between them.
no regrets going to this retreat.
Pictures time!
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
hello dear blog .i mback.
my days...wanna keep it happy.but in reality world u cant really do that perfectly.
there are times of stress.misunderstandings.arguments,blablabla
i had arguments with my friends today.i was really depressed afterthat.on that moment,i told myself: vivien,u promised that u must love.loveeeeeeeee.
okay.i did it.but i think is wasnt goood enough.i really dont want all this to continue.i got no idea to stop all this.
dear lord jesus,may u pls tell me how i gonna face it.how i gonna got through all this.give me strenght.give wisdom to go through.most importantly teach me to love.i trust you and i believe in you.amen
my days...wanna keep it happy.but in reality world u cant really do that perfectly.
there are times of stress.misunderstandings.arguments,blablabla
i had arguments with my friends today.i was really depressed afterthat.on that moment,i told myself: vivien,u promised that u must love.loveeeeeeeee.
okay.i did it.but i think is wasnt goood enough.i really dont want all this to continue.i got no idea to stop all this.
dear lord jesus,may u pls tell me how i gonna face it.how i gonna got through all this.give me strenght.give wisdom to go through.most importantly teach me to love.i trust you and i believe in you.amen
Friday, April 23, 2010
busy.but love it
school days are always busy and is not going to end till form5 .
schools.then tuitions and tuitions.then church.youth service.
is really tiring.stressful.
i changed my thinking these days, not to hate it but lovee it.not to runn aaway from it, but face it.
i saw this scene while i was walking on the flyovers.that is to appreciate the school days...
before biology tuition,me and few of my besties went to mcd for lunch.we walked to the tuition centre then. we really have fun, not to say fun..but the kind of joy in my heart.we were walking through flyovers,passing traffic lights and crossing the busy roads..and we were like fooling around and talking about korean guys and stuff like that.haha.
time will not flies back, but going on day by day..in few years time..we wont be wearing our school uniforms and fooling around along the road.we dun have tuitions anymore.cant spend so much time with our besties either.
just love the days we had.appreciate it.be happy.like me.lol
schools.then tuitions and tuitions.then church.youth service.
is really tiring.stressful.
i changed my thinking these days, not to hate it but lovee it.not to runn aaway from it, but face it.
i saw this scene while i was walking on the flyovers.that is to appreciate the school days...
before biology tuition,me and few of my besties went to mcd for lunch.we walked to the tuition centre then. we really have fun, not to say fun..but the kind of joy in my heart.we were walking through flyovers,passing traffic lights and crossing the busy roads..and we were like fooling around and talking about korean guys and stuff like that.haha.
time will not flies back, but going on day by day..in few years time..we wont be wearing our school uniforms and fooling around along the road.we dun have tuitions anymore.cant spend so much time with our besties either.
just love the days we had.appreciate it.be happy.like me.lol
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