i m backkk

is been a really long time that i did not post anything from my last blog.

LAZY.I was lazy to blog.kakas.

seriously,i was total lost and blur for the past 2 months.my Form 5 life was just going on without meaning and i did not realised i was walking down a hill that doesnt get me up but walking down and down.

until...

i went to DC CAMP(our annual youth camp) on 13th March.4 days 3 nights of unforgettable memories,unstoppable laughs and the nicest sessions that i ever had.

on the 1st session,the grace from the Lord just fell on me.i strongly felt the presence of the Lord.my heart was melted and i told the Lord: i want more from you.i want to receive something from you in this camp.more Lord..Jesus.

The Lord gave me this word.'CONFIDENT'.BE MORE CONFIDENT,IN FACT YOU ARE CONFIDENT.I enjoyed the strong presence with him.i was comfort and i laid on him.

on the last night,which was the last sessions.once again,my heart was stirred and i knew the Lord was giving me something.i wanted to receive it.i tried really hard to receive it but i cant.i kept asking the Lord whether he is trying my patience.but still the night ended with a desperate heart cravings for answers.

i talked to Ps.Angela right after the session.questioning why this situation happened.Ps.Angela asked me : are u having negative thoughts running around in your mind? do u feel worthless sometimes?

immediately i got the answers.i knew what happened to me from the past 2 months.i often thinks to the negative side until it turned to a HABIT.

although i knew the answers but this is not the end of it.the is just the beginning of my long journey walking up again from downhill.no matter how steep the hill is,i have to walk back up.because this is how my life should go on.going on with HIM.This is the only way to let me meet him and receive his WORD.

will upload more exciting pics later. :)

this is how i walk back up.no matter how steep it was,i will go on.

Form 5

i start off my school miserably.was in a blur for the past few weeks.I kept loosing my belongings and i out totally out of focus.

was too comfy in the two months holiday...

ended up struggling in homework and tiredness...AND PEER PRESSURE FOR SPM!

i wasnt in a good mood yesterday.i showed temper to clarice during lesson.she is my sponsee aka piano teacher.Clarice, i m sorry.

i was depressed and i cant control my emotion.negative thoughts just run through my mind.

i guess i need GOD.

he is the one who can help me going through the hard times.

he is the only one who can

CHANGE ME.

pictures from watch night sevice

i dont know what happen to my bloggg..i can moved the pics that i have uploaded.soo..this is it.

1.1.11

the first day of the year!! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

I had great fun in watch night service yesterday.

oh my gosh..2011.i m form 5 now.SPM!! is kinda scary but i have to conquer it.

i believe this..with God all this are possible. i must start this year with a positive opening.

thank God for what you have given me in 2010.may u please continue to bless me and my family this year.hehe

my NEW YEAR RESOLUTION:

1. study hard for SPM


2. not easily tempted.


3. arrange my time properly.


4. anyway,always fo the right thing.

May Lord take away all my hindrances and unhappiness from the past and make it a great start.

the black and white puppet

jiggle bells jiggle bells jiggle all the way~ IS CHRISTMAS!

i did a dance for christmas with japhia(who choreograph it)with rachel.joses.pris.hilda and dhana.

we had just a few practice and we did it!

our character in the dance is a puppet.we pose and we move like a puppet.haha.

and thanks jayhia for teaching us such a creative dance with love and patience.LOL

i love Christmas.is a remembrance of the birth Jesus.is a great thing that we celebrate it.

the dance:)

overcomers!

WE ARE THE OVERCOMERS!

On the10th and 11th of December,we have a conference-'OVERCOMERS' from Mike Pilavachi.

He was a fantastic speaker.He emphasize a lot on LOVE...that we christians need to show more love to the world out there and be a good example as a christian.This is the way to reach out to them,using LOVE to melt their heart and believe God as their saviour.

Mike Pilavachi really has his own way of preaching.The way he express his word indirectly but at the same time u understand what he is trying to say.The wonderful thing till now i can still remember his preaching.LOL

i felt the presence of God at the 2nd night of conference.before that night,i was worried that i cant get back to the Lord anymore...i dun feel any connection with HIM and i m nt focus either.

That night,i released all my burden onto him and i heard...

Vivien,u can always come back.You belong right here,right beside me.

Rac came to me and she said clear out all the brokenness deep down yr heart...by tonight go out as a new you...something like that.I was touched..really really touched.THANK YOU,RACHEL I LOVE YOU!

i belong to you,Lord.

the funny speaker-Mike Pilavachi

worship session.(me..infront of the white shirt guy)

aw..he is so cute.(mike's team)

the winner of the fearfactor challenge.is an ipad!!