aku.me.myself

i m proud to be myself. in the past,i feel small and nothing.

although i still havent find what my strengths are,i feel comfortable and great to be my own.doing my own decisions and the way i acted.i've become really myself these days,being more 'real'.

i may not as good as how the way they dress.

i may not as smart as them.

i may not as fluent as how they speak english.

i may not as bright as the way they acted.

is okay.i have walked over.people might be better than you but i believe everyone of us have their own virtue.i believe i've my own strength.the Lord will show me as time comes.just like Theo says : WHERE DOES YOUR CONFIDENCE LIE?

i close my eyes

when i close my eyes,i see a beautiful shadow of a girl standing in between holding both their parents' hands.

when i close my eyes,i see great things happen.

when i close my eyes, i see a bright shine striking my vision.

when i close my eyes,i see peace and love that warms me.

when i close my eyes,i see a long and narrow road that takes me to the future.

soooooooooo.is has been very long that i did not update anything.

spm trials with be on in 2 weeks.which means spm is gonna start so soon.

where is my passion? where is my big dreams and great thoughts?

Lord,i need you.give me wisdom.

the child that got no U-turn

The children in the word today suffered in internet addiction.the parents,especially in China were worried about the children.to get rid of this "youth culture",a training camp (like a rehab center for drug addict) named 'Qihang Salvation Training Camp' was established in China, Guangxi.

this is the campsite.look like a rundown jail

A 15-year-old chinese boy named DengShenshan was facing the same problem like some other youths in this nation.His grade drops and he was in a over-weight condition due to his addiction.His parents decided to sent him to this 'training camp' to end his bad behaviour.

Shenshan parents' handed 7000 yuan and left him.immediately,the instructor made him run laps around the basketball court.after running 30 laps,he stumbled and fell.the instructor hit him with a wooden chair and it broke.he begged for him to stop and pushed himself up continue running.after running half a court he collapsed again,"do you want to run again?"the instructor yelled.right after that he swung a plastic chair to the boy.Shenshan was bleeding from his mouth,eyes,and nose.later,he was taken to the hospital.Shenshan was pronounced de

ad after 14hours in the camp.

deng shenshan,the day before he went into the camp.

More than a dozen people were arrested for his death.The founder of the camp,who branded himself a educational and psychological expert had never ever been to high school.Shenshan parents' mentioned that the camp had advertise in government-run television stations and even in the government school.

-taken from Readers Digest-

I was really surprise about this incident after reading the article.there were people that deceive children's life because of money.A place that suppose to change one's life turn into a place of horror.

46 days!

46 days to my trial.omg!

sorry for not updating my blog for sooo long. irene told me to update my blog..i was like woww..there's someone that visit my blog. LOL

oh yeah! to irene: congratz of getting full scholarship is aust! take care! belanja me watch movie wen u r back.hahahaha

Anyway,46 days...i didnt take it seriously until last week?! i started my revision.goshh...i gonna regret this if i dont take action now.SPM is just one in your lifetime.nobody wants to take twice.

school was fine and crazy as usual. but for spiritually and mentally,i did grew alot. things change,people will change.this we how we grow by changing.changing our attitude and character into better is positive.my view of looking at someone now is different now,not just the surface.

peaceeee!

a promise from daddy

dad leaved this little girl when she was 5.she was pissed off with her dad that leaves her and her mom,

deeply in her heart,she miss her dad so badly.

as this little girl grew up to a teenager she slowly understands her dad and the anger in her heart was gone.

this few months,she always thought about her dad and hope that he will call back one day.

she is very sensitive to the scenes of father and daughter playing around..hugging and comforting their children. she always thought about her dad at those moments and hoping her dad can do the same thing to her.

there was this young boy talking to his dad on the phone:"daddy,when are u coming back?"his dad which was beside me answered :"daddy will come back soon.as long as the job here is done, daddy will come back." immediately her eyes swelled up with tears.she hopes there was the reply from her dad.

until one day,her dad call back.she were indeed happy and her mom pass the phone to her and called her to talk to her dad.she took the phone..heard his voice and she called her papa(in mandarin) for the 1st time after so many years.she had a short conversation to her dad.

the main thing that her dad said was "daddy promise you to call you more frequent"....

she was really glad that her dad still remember that he still has a daughter over here. :))

i love you.daddy.