i m backkk

is been a really long time that i did not post anything from my last blog.

LAZY.I was lazy to blog.kakas.

seriously,i was total lost and blur for the past 2 months.my Form 5 life was just going on without meaning and i did not realised i was walking down a hill that doesnt get me up but walking down and down.

until...

i went to DC CAMP(our annual youth camp) on 13th March.4 days 3 nights of unforgettable memories,unstoppable laughs and the nicest sessions that i ever had.

on the 1st session,the grace from the Lord just fell on me.i strongly felt the presence of the Lord.my heart was melted and i told the Lord: i want more from you.i want to receive something from you in this camp.more Lord..Jesus.

The Lord gave me this word.'CONFIDENT'.BE MORE CONFIDENT,IN FACT YOU ARE CONFIDENT.I enjoyed the strong presence with him.i was comfort and i laid on him.

on the last night,which was the last sessions.once again,my heart was stirred and i knew the Lord was giving me something.i wanted to receive it.i tried really hard to receive it but i cant.i kept asking the Lord whether he is trying my patience.but still the night ended with a desperate heart cravings for answers.

i talked to Ps.Angela right after the session.questioning why this situation happened.Ps.Angela asked me : are u having negative thoughts running around in your mind? do u feel worthless sometimes?

immediately i got the answers.i knew what happened to me from the past 2 months.i often thinks to the negative side until it turned to a HABIT.

although i knew the answers but this is not the end of it.the is just the beginning of my long journey walking up again from downhill.no matter how steep the hill is,i have to walk back up.because this is how my life should go on.going on with HIM.This is the only way to let me meet him and receive his WORD.

will upload more exciting pics later. :)

this is how i walk back up.no matter how steep it was,i will go on.