i knew the truth,should i be mad or not?

that title above got nothing with my blog that i gonna post..i just cant think what to be my title and i dont wanna put it untitled..haha

hmm..just talk about my holidays and christmas!

eve of christmas eve

i went out with my mum's friends for dinner at a new shop named t.o.s aka taste of south located near jusco.the renovation looked so western and sweet..but once i saw the menu and found out that t.o.s is stands of taste of south..*u know wat is the food that taste of south*..definitely not western.and the food sucks!! they do like combination with chinese and western is soo not nice..after our meal we went to "Precious time"(is a cafe) for a better drink.we felt much better there...

christmas eve

went to my mum's cell at night they had a open house for christmas thingy.a lot of new comer came and most important the food was good..haha.hav a great time there.yeaaa..

me n rac's retarded pics

christmas day!

dresses earrings heels all up! went to the church in the morning..everyone dress so nicely and great.i m not bad too..white dress and with my heels on.is actually a tradition for us to wear new dresses on christmas.the worship was perfect..the presentation was funny and the preaching was good.after the service me,rac and jay went jj to watch alvin and the chipmunks.we went there with high spirits,hav our lunch and lepaking around to wait for the movie to starts.on 3pm sharp we went to cinema and jay checked the ticket.sad things happened..THE TICKETS WE BOUGHT WAS ON 24TH NOT ON 25TH! our hearts broke into pieces in seconds and got angry after that.we went emo later on and called for transport with red eyes..
6pm,we went to back to church for a christmas bbq night..we really really enjoy it..laughter's and jokes were still in my memories..we slept at 3.30am and woke up at 8.30am for mcd breakfast.haha.thats youth life..

woah...so long didnt blog new post.
came bac from children's camp few days ago.i m soo tanned right now.we really done a great job in this camp.
hav lots of fun with the kids,got beaten by them with wooden sticks..*ouch*

my antivirus in my laptop get corrupted and i hav to reformat again..
just got bac my laptop yesterday,i was friggin mad n surprise at the same time.*screams*
I LOST EVERYTHING IN MY LAPTOP AND I DIDNT DO ANY BACKUPS!

i've said that my holiday is boring but actually is-consider-not-really-boring..
singapore-lepaking around-children's camp-basketball-movie-funfunfun...lolz

went to jj for movie today..watched new moon finally with ann.is kinda bit rush but yea is still fun.
i saw a lot comments about my church friends going apyac felt soo sad that i can gooo but i still wanna say HAV FUN IN APYAC AND RECEIVE THE PRESENCE OF GOD!

the moment...

This afternoon me and my niece went ice skating.THIS IS MY FIRST TIME EVER TO PLAY ICE SKATING.
i nearly tripped for unlimited times,felled 3 times...haha.but consider ok lar...is my first time.

if u felled when u are ice skating, nobody can help you to get up,only u can get yourself up.
''where u fall.where u get up'' i really mean it when i get up from the felled.we must be independent,there are situation that nobody can help you except yourself..

finally get updated...

live in singapore nearly a week...life here is kinda nice,fast and quick..you

have to be independent and u cant rely on others.

what observe in singapore this week:

band members,dont be jealous okay...the band members here dont stand under hot sun to play their instruments..the stand/sit in a shady area to play..haha

i saw only 2 made-in-malaysia car here.*u know wat i mean right

the cheerleaders here sucks!even the basics like star jump they aso cant do well..

Picturesss to share...

me!!!
my niece in the swimming pool..what a pro stretching..

eating king crab ramen..looks yummy right?

hello...are you awake??

few of this photos is taken in east coast park.. wakeboarding area

my not-so-boring holiday trip

i get over the boring days in the schools earlier than my friends..haha
i went to Genting with my niece *than i hav mention in the earlier post
hav lots of fun there..get to go the places in genting where my mum-will-not-take-me...
actually,i still hav to go school after coming bac from Genting but thing had changed during...

my niece asked :'do you want to hav holidays in Singapore' and i said yes..wakakaka

just arrive at Singapore few hours ago..sitting at th living hall with my cousin sister silently because of us are online-ing jus heat the sound of mouse clicking and the silence...



havent uploaded the pictures yet..will show to everyone later..

TODAY

going to school unwillingly as usual* thats what happen after pmr*
school is like sooo boring and i m waiting to get over this boring period.
but i m going to skip school tmr! haha
going genting with my relatives.without my mum.yes, without my mum.
meet up with my relatives at kl...so i m going by bus from ipoh to kl ALONE!
FIRST TIME GOING KL ALONE.vivien you are sooo brave!

went to jay's blog and read the old post that she blogged.
remember the times we hang out together..bringing bac all the happy memories
we really hav lots of fun last holiday..

is raining now.gotta go

thank you!

my birthday this year falls on sunday, is soo great.

THANK YOU to everyone who wished me and remember my birthday..receive lots of presents this year..

wah..15 years old already..thank you Lord that you had provide my mum a little life on this day.

i think i need some rest

i m sick..woohoo..
after pmr,everything is like gone upside down.online over 6 hours..watch movie/ drama non stop..

now : ermhum..machine breakdown n i need to rest.

ponteng 2 days for shopping!

just came back from kl yesterday..hav a really great time shopping,we went to 6 different shopping centre for in 2 days..geng right? i went with my mum n another two friends..the aunty's daughter,tracy she is kinda cool n dont really talk normally..but this time she talks a lot..*just like me* n our friendship get closer..

on monday night,we had a dinner in mid valley with aunty meng's cousin brother.they hav 2 cute n adorable daughters.the first time i saw them i really wanted to get closer and spent time with them.it just natural n i dunno why maybe i like kids too much..lol.this 2 girls stick to their father until i felt a bit of jealous n happy for them to hav father's love and a normal family which i dont really hav it.

went to ikea on tuesday, hav a late lunch there.i liked the concept in ikea..at the ikea cafe n they really show actions to 'safe the earth'.

my friend said: shop until u drop..n i nearly dropped n bankrupt..
going to school tmr..cannot ponteng anymore..warning letter is coming after mee..


pictures time! just a few pictures...

lol...

the happy girl is trying to be happy

i hate tonight! especially after youth.everything is normal like other days.but many situations made me hard to face.not the ppl around me made me like this,but is just myself ,the feeling of myself. i feel hard n emo right now,i really dont know how to express myself....

i m thehappygirl.thehappygirl.thehappygirl.thehappygirl!

it couldnt help...how ah? just wait for time flies....

hanging around..

i went jusco with my friends...me.junko.jo.sao li actually there are 9 of us going but only 4 of us show up..but is a good thing actually*erhum*.we went for movie..'the cloud of...bla bla meatballs'
we thought a lot ppl will watch this cartoon movie..because is so popular..*k..not that really popular* n yesterday junko was still worrying about buying tickets..haha.the whole cinema only seated with 5 rows of ppl..wooo so 'many' ppl. the funny thing was there were only teenagers but not kids..i thought kids will love to watch all this kinda movie..but no this movie only attracted to the teenagers..lol

we to sushi king for lunch.having fun there.i was acting like a food program thingy n acted to say the food is nice but the expression was 'wat is this food? ew...yuck' hahaha..but actually the food was nice jus wanna act.

really enjoyed our time...before going back, i saw a group of girls that i know...just walking past me with-a-berlagak-way.*not to mention names* but i hate it ...who u think u r?princess or smth?

pmr over..yay!

yay..pmr is over.haha..
not that happy as i think..just normal only
scared about the result..dunno how was it..but dun care lar..bla bla bla n bla
wanna do smth in this long holiday..

oh no...

i cant really concentrate..someone plz help me..lord,plz help me.i know i dont deserve it but i really need u right now..help me to focus. i m not into study today..everything i read today wasnt going in to my mind wednesday is my big day, i still not taking seriously..

arhhh....

my last science tuition

just came back from last science tuition.
i dun care that i no time to study..did not do my hw, i must post this blog to day.

our teacher-mr chin

this is our last day for our science tuition...we decided to make a card to our teacher.mr.chin. at the very last minute..we wrote our wishes note n stuff.everyone have some many stuff to mention about..after he received the card ,he said some very touching words and some preparation for pmr..he said..i teach in this tuition centre for 7 years..this year.this class is the most special class among some many years..the nosiest.the naughtiest.asking many stupid questions.love chapter 4. the girl that always came late in the history but came early today.*tats me* and aso the smartest.the most hardworking class..lol

and also this is the last day to meet my friends because we studied in different school.i try to take this precious time talk to my friends...bringing more happy memories.i really missed u girls.we might meet next year or not..u r all my friends that shared through happy times and really stupid times.i will remembered all that in my heart.

yea..THANK YOU everyone! the caring of my friends..the guidance from the teacher

a happy and not happy day

happy: went to clearwater hav fun with rac n friends
not happy: left my swimming costume there...
:tired!
:feel so uncomfortable..
:still hav tones of homework havent do..
:the noisy n warm environment make me feel headache

help me! lol

the happy girl is going to be the mad girl

i m going insane..i m helping my mum to sign up skype ,but i cant find the contacts she wanted after so many times..i just ignored it.
i went to my mum's facebook account for some new update which i just help her to sign up few days ago..but the thing was the password was wrong cant get in with the correct password.i tried to reset it but the thingy said 'invalid account' bla bla bla...i have got no patience now..can anyone help me?

get update

hav a nap this afternoon..then i went straight to the laptop doing my work
i m doing a sample invitation card for the prefects farewell..by the time i nearly finished,i accidentally pressed smth n the whole thing was gone..my heart sank

then i look at the clock it was 7.20pm hav to get ready for tuition but mum is not at home yet...
few seconds later i received mum's call she said she wont be able to come n take me to tuition on time n called me to cancel it...my heart was double sank =( i wanted to go the tuition n i was absent last week n pmr is coming soon.haiz..

i turned the laptop on,trying to continue to do the invitation card but i cant really do it well just like i was doing on the previous one..listen yiruma's song on bearshare..i felt the loneliness again..nobody at home n it was just me siting on the living hall..i wish someone can talked to me

after dinner,i went to my friends blog to checked wats new..immediately i feel much better,the loneliness was gone..can now focus on my stuff again..

n i m glad my cousin hoi luen drop by her words on the chat box ...biao yie is happy now=)

add on pictures in pangkor

'so call rockstar pictures'

this the water games thingyy that i mention about

the rockstar jumping photos..lol

friends!!

nearly forgotten

a trip to pangkor on merdeka day.me n my mum going with a group of cell group friends.we reach lumut aboout 10.40am.the freaking thing was the ferry is going at 10.45am n we hav to rush to the ferry.everyone was here except my mum n we hav 2 find her.me.rac.gabriel.daniel.ran to the parking lot n find 4 my mum.rac say it was like a amazing race.lol.then,we reached n saw the beautiful sea.4 of us when to the rock by the sea n hav some rock climbing.and we took rockstar pictures there,we really pretended as a rockstar..haha.so fun.4 of us went to play some water games called the big marble [smth like tat] n it costs 25 dollars.we sat on a that thingy n here we go...the jet boat in front of us went soo fast n daniel nearly felled.we jus go 4 one round n it isnt really tat fun and isnt tat worth..

after lunch we when 4 boat riding.the guy-tat-lead-us took us to a few island n there we saw many expensive chalets and resorts.the resorts tat most interested me was called marina bay.is nt actually a resort but a private hse with private cars,chefs,swimming pool.and it cost 10 thousand 800 usd per nite.wow..i nearly fainted ..but maybe 1 day could stay there n enjoy the lifestyle.we went to snorkeling too..is my first time and i was quite afraid..haha.4 of us went down 1st followed by the children.and we first go down we was screaming sooo loud **fish**fish*and scream again haha...but at last we still went into the water.it was amazing.the fishes were swimming beside me and they were soo beautiful although the sea water isnt clear.we hav a great time there..

before sunset we packed up everything went to the jetty 4 ferry.me n rac were standing at the ferry staring at the waves and the views quietly.in my heart i was thinking..vivien u r a very successful person after u grown up.earn lots of money and go to marina bay and enjoyed the lifestyle.so..from now on study hard..n be a successful person.

tired

pmr..coming!!
homework..homework..help!
i m soo busy n the hw r like keep coming in n not going out.
is like we cant finish our hw forever..n nearly breathless..lol

lord jesus:may u keep me strong n let me have wisdom to past all this .thank you ,lord.amen.

a day trip to kl

went to kl yesterday with joen and few of our church members.we went there for food! in tenji restaurant.
i know is gonna gain fat but the japanese food was so yummy..u will know when go there..with environment .the music.and the food.so niceeee..
we enjoy it so much.after lunch we went to sungai wang 4 shopping.but we just walk n walk without buying anything because the things in that place sucks!dont go sungai wang 4 shopping..is horrible.when we were walking(shopping..)i said SG is like ipoh parade in ipoh,u know wat joen said..'no..here..is worst than ipoh parade...'lol.
but we hav a great time.at least can lepak together...

happy birthday!

today was junko's birthday,we celebrated in mcd.
8 pretty girls turned up n acted crazy..lol-me.elaine.junko.xin hwa .pik hwa.pik sin.lai ting.chi yan
as usual the birthday girl turned up late n we waited her 4 sooo long.
after eating our burger, we acted like we wanna go home n leave junko alone.we actually brought the birthday cake and sang birthday song to her.unfortunately,by the time i was singing the song,chi yan suddenly say she lost her new ipod.everyone was busy finding n nobody wanna cared about the cake.and the-girl-who-brought-up-the-cake standing up there with embarrassment haha.but at last we found it-it was actually in her own bag.wow!
then,we sang b'day song again n blow candle n blablabla...
and TIME TO EAT CHEESE CAKE! it was little fight when eating n i made them eat a very big piece.haha.
we hav a great n crazy time in mcd n HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR FRIEND -JUNKO


Pictures time!

the princess of the day-junko.see her face..lol

xin hwa is putting the cake into her big mouth.

pik hwa,the camera girl

and this is meeee..

hollidays is coming again

tons of tons of homework yay!
the teacher in the school was insane! we know pmr is coming but we still need sometime to relax n breath..sigh
still gt revisions to do..
my trial exam results was ok..but I M BAD IN MY CHINESE! n nobody can help me.is from myself, i gt no interest in chinese.how ah?
this holiday..study.revision.study.revision.bla.bla.

but WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.vivien say geh.lol

feelings

i got a lot feelings in my heart...happiness . unhappiness. sad
i got a secret in my heart that i cannot tell..that can only keep in my heart..
some r about my friends..and some r about my family

my laugh actually covers my sadness.
when i m being stupid or laughing very hard.i m sad and frustrated in my heart and i just release out from it..

..............
but nvm i just wanna be me .myself

to myself:be happy.live positive

sad..

so long never update my blog already..
wanna know y?
cause i lost my laptop..stolen by the thief that broke into my hse few weels ago.
i m sooo sad..my stuff r all gone..heck!
aw..no more laptop,mum say ganna buy me one,but is months later
haiz..
hav to learn without laptop.

exam result

my result in mid year exam is only average.no really that good but not really that bad.
from my last exam results,this time is consider better from the previous.but i still think that is not good enough.
.......i nearly fail my maths! i havent get such a low marks for my maths,even my poorest subject -chinese is better than maths.
oh ya..my chinese is improve got a 'b' on it.haha
dont feel like telling others subjects result is too embarrassing..hehe
still have to study more n more more.
i always remember that word my pastor told us:' with passion ,u can succeed anything in excellence!'

friends

friendship
makes me become many different kind of faces and attitude.
emmm..i got many friends nowadays. lol. i like to mix with ppl .different kind of ppl
actually. i dont hav a really really close friend that i can tell my secrets n share my stuff
and..when i mix with my friends.i become different kind of person n attitude to every 'gang' of my friends. this is not the real me.seriously this is not me.not vivien
i want to be me.myself not copying other ppl but me.
but this is the world.or maybe i really havent met one.
i think the bestfriend of mine is myself ...lol

i got no patient

we took it in the toilet.

the ugliest photo ever takenthe view in sungkai

i went to rac's blog to copy the photos that we took from sungkai.
afterthat, i start pasting it in the blog that i written to sungkai.but i got no patient 2 edit the pic slowly and role[is tat the spelling]it down from top to bottom. i m doing it at first but i dunno y the pic suddenly gone n i hav to do again.i don hav the patient to do so i decided to post it here.

learn

learning.learning.learning
we never stop learning until we are dead..
learn from our own mistakes.learn some good things from your friends.learn from the elders.the most important learn God's word.
we still have to learn.
but learn good things.


[actually i dont know wat i m writing about.lame right?]
lol.....


live happy.
live positive.

sungkai

on perak sultan's birthday.me n my mum joined the cell group to sungkai day trip..
i went because rachel is going..or else is *boring*.
k..the place was nice ..but is quite dirty..
oh yeah..4got to introduce sungkai..sungkai is a infamous place located in perak..there is a hot spring in this place..
me n rac have some fun there..but we saw two *special* ppl there.
1st is my*beloved girl guide senior that i hated her sooo much.*

2nd is a stupid- yellow- shirt- stupid- malay -man, he ask us 'sudah khawin ke?' 'saya belum khawin' 'boleh sembang -sembang?'
my first reaction is hiding behind rachel.[i dun noe y i hid behind her ,i m older than her..she supposed to hide behind me right? but i feel save hiding behind her..hahaha]
rachel reaction:staring at that guy
our reactions after 5 seconds:walk away in a quick pace..
lol..funny right?! is pretty dangerous also ,we might be rapped or kidnapped by the stupid guy.
we took a lot photos..[in rachel's camera,have to wait until she post the photos on her blog]

yeah.tats all.lol


live to be happy.live positive

good bye aunty constance

me n my mum living in with aunty constance for almost a year..
she is pretty and also a tough lady..she has two sons -jesper and jayden[two naughty boys]
but they r soo cute...they come to our hse once a week.between this few months.i have been getting so close to them, they r like my own brothers..

aunty constance had move to her new hse a week ago...i cant always get to see her n her two sons .
haiz..i start to miss them already ..haiz..
thx 4 yr caring and all the kindness that u have given to me...
take care.may God bless u.
good bye ,aunty constance.

earth hour..and funny stuff

i never joined the earth hour last night..i m in my mum's-friends-daughter's-b'day-party.
have 2 on light..the party was noisy-there r ppl shouting and there are lots of kids

today,i went to church as normal..
i wore a red collar shirt and a skirt[is not mini but is not long aso.so is a skirt]
is quite wired..4 me. i m soo uneasy with that skirt
then, i saw most of my friends are wearing skirt too...we never talked about it earlier and all of us end up wearing skirt.lol
yea,another thing.when me and my mum went back home after church we cant open the door in our hse...my mum was soo mad and the weather was hot. we put the key in but we just cant open the door! at last,my mum's friend get to open it.thank God!

DC camp

during the holiday-15 march 18 march i went to my church camp - DC camp- theme:'u r the leader' in Fraser's hill
the place was so cold and hot..lol -the weather is funny ..sometimes very cold and sometimes feels very hot!
there is a band called almost alive! it is cool band from aust and they played so well! i like the lead singer Noami..she is so sweet and she can sing sooo well!and...she is engaged with the band drummer..so romantic.
the word was good..every youth leaders in our youth preached and it was good..
and i want to tell clarice: yr preaching is good!

the task.
we don't have any games in our camp but we have smth very different this year
in every task we are given a situation and we have to solve it .example:the u must open a pc company in xx place and u are given this xx budget -u must gained back yr profit and earned more money..stuff like that(interesting right?)

i learn a lot in this camp about leadership..and i m a leader right now!
last thing..DC CAMP RAWKS!

finally over...

exam finally over!

holiday is coming!

prepare stuff to dc camp.....rock on!

although is holiday now...still have study hard cause pmr is coming!!

this monthly exam result is not that good..not in my expectation-too bad!

still have to study harder..

i watch a movie just now-another cinderella story

soooo nice!is about dancing and stuff..

everyone but except me

i dont want to talk much ...
but the 'ppl' will know
i m not happy that day..i m a little bit mad..
i thought u guys r my best friends..u all r just left me out..
i really feel left out..am i still in the gang?
i really dont like this feeling!

dream

everyone has their own dream.
yesterday,after school students from yellow house have to stay back for 'sukantara'
we do many sports like long jump..high jump and more..
while waiting for the others ...me and my gang[junko,chi yan,pik sin]seated on a shady stool at the side of the school..
then,we started talking..[girls love to talk!]
at first, chi yan was talking about her holiday in singapore..then i went into it and say that my cousins are living in singapore.....then we started talking about singapore schools..A levels...their dreams....
the main thing is everyone of us wanted to study hard -go to a good university-get a good job and be a successful person
for me..i must set a goal in my life and be a successful person like the other ppl
i want my dreams to come true...and i also hope that all their dreams will also come true!

something happen

today is my first day of school after the chinese new year
as usual,we have our 'perhimpunan' before classes start..
i am a 'pengawas' .....so i have to stand at the back until it ends
.....before 15minutes the perhimpunan ends...
i fainted!
i dunno why..maybe never get enough sleep..[cny..i think]
that minute i feel things and ppl turning black and white.
i panicked a bit..and my friends calm me down...
my friends told me that my lips were white[is just like a vampire]
i feel a bit embarrassing tooo..
haiz..nvm lar..just forget it!

art exhibition

my art centre had an art exhibition last sunday..at hillcity
because it was sunday,i invite my church friends to go..
at last..only to of them is going with me -johnson and pris
i show them my art..i ask them..nice?
and they say....nice[in a different slang...]
but they still hav to say is nice...haha
we saw many beautiful and professional arts and paintings...
johnson is like ...i want to learn lar..do i hav learn from basic ?or i can learn wat ever i wan??
of cause..u must learn from basic ...i said
pris also say the arts is nice and she met her school mates there..
we have fun time there and we love the arts sooo much..

school started so miserable...

wow..school?!-lol
everyday, i do that..[is like a timetable for me]
6.15am:alarm rings-wake up
6.40am:go and prepare..[my uniform.my hair.etc]
6.45am:eat breakfast
6.50am:go school
7.00am:reach school..the first thing to do is put my bag in bilik pengawas..
oh.yeah..-4get to tell..i get chosen to be a prefect[is recomemded by the teacher]
7.20am:do my duty as a pengawas..haiz..[i dun feel like doing aso]
7.30am:start my lesson like normal students do
1.15am:wait for car n go home

boring right?!i do that everyday..[but other ppl do just like me..haha]
i can imagine i said boring..school jus start a few days..still have long way to go..
how i discribe myself now: go school-come bac-do hw- go tution-come bac[rotate everyday]
but i will tell myself everyday...study hard.study smart...i will do my best in everything

school is going to start?!

school is going start?!...awwwww..
i felt a little bit stress when my friends get good result in PMR..
anyway, hope is a good year in my studies..
may everyone have a lucky year..
may God bless all my friends and my family..

happy new year everyone!!!!